I know. I barely remember myself either. I used to blog about dramas. I used to watch dramas with some regularity. Now I consider it a feat if I watch a few episodes of at least something a week. The world has turned for me, as I always knew it would, and once feared it would. Several years ago my thoughts were, 'What a sad day when I no longer find dramas so entertaining and/or thought-provoking as I do now!' A year ago, 'This can't be the end. I won't let it be the end.' A few months ago, 'Yep, I'm passed it all. Such is life.'
I think I thought the process would be more depressing than it is. I still watch some things, I still find things entertaining, and I have not retreated entirely from this world I've created from myself. I just show it differently. Much differently. For anyone interested, here's a recap of my life for the last few months:
I'm still plugging away at a few dramas, some of which I started a year ago!
- Shin Don - This is my slow-mo historical drama I watch an episode of every few weeks because I need something grounding and completely devoid of romance. It's such a stark depiction of a court in turmoil, since the plot follows the Goryeo period before it transitions to the Joseon dynasty. Production values are comparatively low compared to sageuks you might see today, but that's because I believe they went all out in the plot and script. It's pretty heavy to watch. 55/61 episodes
- Secret Love Affair - I acknowledge this drama is great, but like many of the heavier Jdramas it bears more resemblance to, it's a tough watch that I rather like savoring. 12/16 episodes
- It's Okay, That's Love - I swear I only started this for the cast, but after four episodes I love it to bits, and I'm a little scared to go on. What if it disappoints? I will finish it sometime. 4/16 episodes
- Fated to Love You - I am watching this slowly because of the OTP, and because Tumblr works as a form as advertising. Seriously, every time I see the leads together and acting cute, I go and watch another episode. And then I get annoyed at Jang Hyuk's acting and I need a break again. 4/20 episodes
- Cinderella's Sister - The beginning is everything I could hope for in a drama, and the female lead every kind of grumpy and jaded, and everything you rarely see in a drama. Unfortunately it looks like the plot will turn cliche rather soon, and I don't know if I want to ruin it for myself. 6/20 episodes
- Trot Lovers - I know, I know. This drama kind of sucks but I enjoy watching it with my husband every now and then for a laugh. I also know some spoilers for upcoming cliche plot 'twists' and boy, am I excited about that. *sarcasm* Chances are I won't be finishing this anytime soon 5/16 episodes
There are plenty of shows I still really want to see - but with my slower watch rate, most of them are at a serious disadvantage. My biggest plan is to continue watching the Japanese taiga Yae no Sakura, of which I've watched the first two episodes and it is right up my alley. Actually there are plenty of Jdramas I want/need/should see. I just can't make myself sit down to watch them.
Will I ever blog again? Write drama reviews? Who can say. I finished Cruel City a few months ago with every intention of writing a review, and then time got away from me. Like many things. I will need another spring of non-fiction creativity to blog like I used to, but if there's anything I know about myself, it's that I may plan one thing, only to never do it. Or I may plan nothing, only to do it the next day.
In the meantime, I need a little encouragement.
Lack of interest in dramas is hardly a bad thing. I would say it's for the better because that is less time I spend watching a computer screen, only of course this isn't really the case. I have merely switched one form of wasteful pastimes for others. I expect to write more about these later, including my thoughts on the current landscape of K-Pop, social media, and... shock of shocks, maybe even my own life.
I'm in a strange place right now. Somewhere I can't quite figure myself out and I don't know what to do with my life, so instead I flounder around trying to fill it with things I'm not sure are entirely important.
In the meantime, I need sustenance.